I searched your name today. I don't really know why...was I going to add you as a "friend"? Maybe I have some strange desire to know what your life is like now. Although I don't really need little reminders to pop up for me to have some picture of your life, I already have a pretty clear image in my head. And no, I don't think you think about it. I don't think it's part of you the way it is part of me. Lea asked me why I keep those emails from you...I know that some might think it's crazy that I do. But I need to. If I don't have something tangible to validate my feelings, I'll think I just made it all up.
I'll think that I
overreacted
was too emotional
misinterpreted actions
...it really wasn't that big a deal.
I need them because I barely believe myself